I haven't posted an entry in pretty much forever. I think it was because I found my life to be pretty content. I tend to only post on here, when I'm having trouble of some sort. However, this post is not because I find myself struggling with some obstacle, but rather because I have come to terms with certain things in my life.

Job. Allow I am not the happiest in my work at Kohl's, I have realized my desire to be a high school math/theatre teacher. I am now working further toward getting my single-subject credential (most likely at UCI) in mathematics. I now have a plan and a goal that I am working toward and little by little taking the steps to fulfill this goal. This makes me happy.

Family. Allow I do not get along with my family all the time, I am trying harder to better my family life. I am having better communication with my mom and dad. I am able to talk to them about issues in my life. I am getting better at ignoring my sisters when they do something that bugs me and I am helping out around the house as I see fit. This makes me happy.

Health. Allow I have been having some health issues lately (going to the doctor's a lot, and being diagnosed with pleaurisy), I am not in bad shape. I am eating better (trying to pack my lunch when I go to work and not turning to snack products every time I am hungry). And because of my work I am at least exercising in one way or another. Also, I am trying to spend more time outdoors and in the sun, instead of constantly being an indoor homebody. This makes me happy.

Friends. This is a bit of a downer because I haven't been doing so well in this area. I am not keeping in contact with my friends as much as I'd like, and I am starting to feel lonelier than ever. I try hanging out with them, but it seems they don't want to do the same. This makes me unhappy.

Relationships. This is also a complicated issue. I'm not in one right now, but I'm starting to feel a bit more content with it. Allow being single is not quite my choice, I am starting to be ok with this lifestyle, for the moment that is. This makes me both happy and unhappy.

So I have come to terms with these areas in my life, and I feel like I needed to get it in writing to come back to in the future and see how much things change tomorrow, or the next day, or the next. Comments are welcome.

Wow, I haven't made a post since June and so much has happened to me. Well, not exactly. When I think back on these past 6 months, nothing has really changed. I still work at Kohl's, however I've been promoted twice since then and am now the Visual Supervisor. I also continue to tutor, pretty much Mon-Thurs after work. My days are still pretty mundane and I can only see JJ on the weekends.
I feel like I've gone nowhere. Lately, I've been thinking back and realizing that I am stuck in the rut with no way out. I recently applied for another job, but wasn't even given an interview or the chance to prove myself, because they had already hired someone else before I even turned in my resume. It's like my life is in this constant monotony.
At least that's how I feel about my work life, my outside of work life is pretty much the same too. I have more friends, but we don't really hang out much because we're all so busy. I barely get to see my friends from school because I'm too busy to go visit them, and whenever I do, I either don't have enough time to see them or they're not there.
My love life is top notch though. I don't see JJ as much as I'd like, but we talk everyday and our relationship's stronger than ever. We hardly fight and he can always lift my spirits when I'm down. It's great. I miss him more than ever though.
So that's pretty much where I am in a nutshell. Oh and last month I passed my CBEST exam so I have my teaching credential. Yay, me!

Okay, so I had to make a comment on something that happened to me recently that I personally changed a part of my life and taught me a lesson that I think everyone can learn from. In other words, I want everybody to listen to my bit of wisdom.

Last week, I walked into Film Society in yet another one of my awkwardly cheery moods. With a smile on my face I sat down in the front of the room and started to set up my laptop. It was then that Franz commented on how he was glad that I had brought my binder. I replied that since I am coming to visit the upcoming weekend, I would copy everything for him. He was pleased. A few awkward seconds went by and he looked at me saying, "Look, Jen..."

I knew what was coming but I didn't want to accept it. Why was he telling me now? Why here? I knew he wanted to yet again display his angst for the fact that I was not living on campus anymore which made it hard to be Secretary. However, to my surprise he continued with, "You're not secretary anymore."

What? Was this really true? Apparently, he had made the executive decision to elect a new secretary (behind my back, I might add). I packed up my things and rushed out of the room, saying that I did not want to discuss this now. Tears welled in my eyes as I walked back into the animation lab and hugged my boyfriend.

Taking comfort in two of my best friends, JJ and Michael, I vented on what had happened and how I felt. Some of the words I remember are, "betrayed, hurt, and most of all un-friended" (if that's even a word).

Later that night I found out from another board member that Franz had made this decision two weeks before hand (meaning that it had been only the second meeting I had missed and he knew why, because my parents were out of town and I had to stay home with my sisters...meaning even if I lived on campus I would have had to go home anyway to watch them). In addition, he made the decision without having spoken to any of the other board members. This made me much more disappointed. Plus, does he even have the power to do so. The other members elected me and there is a constitution regarding these very issues.

Anyway, I have put a lot of hard work into this club and obviously too much of my overlooked time. Therefore, I decided that no one was getting my binder or any files that were saved on my computer. That is my property and not the clubs, my efforts and no one elses. Because I feel that I do not truly deserve or am allowed to be "kicked out" of office, I am holding on to what is rightly mine.

Not only this, but although Franz later apologized, I am never going to forget this. It may seem like a poor reason to lose a good friendship, but it is certainly not. He is still my friend, at least until I graduate, but nothing can give us back what we used to have.

I hope that everyone that reads this can take something from it, especially since you've taken the time to read this entire thing and if anyone has any comments on this issue please feel free!

Okay, so, I think it's starting to hit me, the real world, that is. It's tough. I'm starting to realize that I'm not going back to school and that life is, most times, boring. School brought out excitement, even if it meant hanging out with your roommate watching a stupid reality show or having your boyfriend suddenly make you realize that Star Trek is kinda cool, in a way. But, outside of school, and friends life is kinda like one of those oh too reflective self-help books. You're always reexaming your life, as if you have nothing better to do, and trying to find ways to improve upon it. And in the end you grow so tired of the constant repetitiveness that you just sit on your butt all day watching Food Network and wishing that you could cook the way that they do. But then it hits you that you don't have the money for that and aren't living your dream. You go take a bath and contemplate your life once again and the whole cycle repeats itself. And that, ladies and gentlemen, is life after college in a nutshell.

Part 1: The Birth of You
*Were you a planned baby? Not as early as I came
*Were you the first? First of three
*Who was present at your birth? My mom, my dad and doctors
*Were your parents married when you were born? yes
*What is your birthdate? 5-16-85

Part 2: The Family
*Are you parents married or divorced? married
*An only child? no
*If you have siblings are you oldest, middle, or youngest? oldest
*What are your sibling's names? Elizabeth and Kristin
*Which parent do you get along with best? Mom (and Dad, both about the same)
*What do you fight about? Money mostly
*Do you have step parents? Nope

Part 3: The Friends
*Do you have more than one best friend? Four, I guess I'm lucky like that
*What do you like to do when you are together? Gossip, drink, kiss (haha, that's for JJ)
*Do you share the same interests? Depends which friend, but somewhat
*Which friend can you tell anything to? JJ, Frankie, Sara, and Jenny (all 4)

Part 4: Your Personality
*How high/low is your self esteem? Pretty low, sadly
*Do you get depressed about things easily? Yep
*Are you an extrovert (outgoing) or an introvert (reserved)? Pretty much introverted except around people I know, I can get kinda crazy
*Are you happy?: I pretend to be
*Do you live life to the fullest? I try

Part 5: Appearance
*Are you comfortable with the way you look? Sometimes
*Describe your hair? Shoulder length, dirty blonde
*How do you dress? Casual, usually jeans and some sort of "wife-beater"

Part 6: The Past
*Were you a strange child? I was a loud, bossy child
*What did you used to love that you no longer do? play with Barbies ;)
*Do you have the same friends? not really, bc i moved from PA
*Was there anything in your past that was traumatizing? Nope

Part 7: The Future
*What is your ambition? to be a happy, successful chef either at a prominent restaurant or on Food Network
*Are you scared of growing old? yeah
*Do you want to get married? yes, absolutely, someday

Part 8: The Outdoors
*Do you prefer indoors or outdoors? Indoors unless the weather is just right
*Favorite Season? summer
*Do you like walking in the rain? depends who i'm with

Part 9: Food
*Are you a vegetarian? i was for one year in hs
*What is your favorite food? french fries and cheese sticks and portabello mushrooms
*What food makes you want to gag? pineapple and coconut
*What is your favorite dessert? creme' brulee
*What is your favorite restaurant? King's Fishhouse and Pomodoro
*Are you a fussy eater? i used to be, but i'm expanding now that i want to be a chef someday


Part 10: Relationships and Love
*Are you single or taken? taken
*If taken who is the lucky guy/girl? JJ
*Do you think love is the best feeling in the world? Usually
*Do you believe in love at first sight? Yes, I'm a sap

Part 11: Experiences
*What was one of your greatest experiences? Swing dancing a couple weeks ago
*What was one of the worst? One particular guy experience
*Have you ever done drugs? No, yay for me
*Have you ever thought you were going to die? Yes

Part 12: Honesty
*What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? To go back in time and never have done the one thing in life I, to this day, regret
*Who's getting on your nerves right now? Many people, particularly girls
*Last person to make you sad? Hmm, I can't quite remember
*Have you been kissed by anyone in the last week? Umm, several people including family, of course ;)

"I don't know. I've been having some issues lately. Do you ever feel like you're just running out of time...like if you had more of it, you could be someone else."

A quote from my thesis that is seriously the epitome of my life lately. I am about to be finished with muyn college career in about 6 weeks and I don't know where I am going to go, I don't know what I'm going to do, and I don't know who I'm going to keep in touch with. My biggest worry, however, is my relationships. I don't want to leave the people that I now see everyday.

I've discovered somewhat recently that I am a creature of habit. I don't mind change, but I prefer the routine and usual. That's what makes the transition so difficult, especially when it comes to moving back home.

However, I realize than life has a purpose and to every situation there is a reason, so I am just putting my life into God's hands. I trust that He will lead me down the right path and guide me through life. And whatever happens from then on, I will take it as it comes.

Somewhat surprising, but not really!

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Dreams can suck sometimes, don't you agree? All day today I couldn't stop thinking about this dream I had last night. It had to do with someone in my life right now, who, I might add, was not someone that I would really choose to dream about. It was one of those things that brought back past feelings and such and it pretty much sucked to wake up this morning and have these thoughts racking my brain all day. I guess what I am trying to say is that I don't understand why, when everything in your life is going well and you're doing fine, things all of the sudden come back to you that make you think, "Hey, maybe my life's not as great as I thought it was," and they basically ruin your sanity and calm persona. After that it becomes difficult for you to get back to that "simple, good life" and it takes awhile to get those things that are constantly racking your brain off your mind. Well, once again, I'm not sure if anything I just said made any sense, but if you have any pointers or even can relate to what I'm talking about, let me know. Yeah, ummm, I guess that's it. G'night!

20 more minutes of work left this time and here I sit with a backache as usual and wondering why on earth they have a job on a college campus that forces you to sit around until 4 in the morning. And if that wasn't enough of a run on sentence for you...how 'bout the fact that I have auditions tomorrow, my locations aren't set, I start shooting next week with little time for a read through with my cast, and I just found out this morning that I am on the non-compliant list for my doc last semester which prevents me from shooting and getting equipment...Basically, evil Veronica from the business office said that I'm missing two forms, two forms of which I'm positive I turned in, so my conclusion is that I'm sure she lost them and is screwing me in the process...I have the forms, I just need to fax them to her, so why on earth am I freaking out so badly? Not only am I totally and completely STRESSED beyond belief, but I was extremely ill yesterday and missed two of my classes because of it and now, of course, I'm kinda behind....so what's new, right? Anyway, I'm pretty sure that you all stopped reading this about one sentence in when you realized that this was going to be a bitchy, whiny journal...but, if you actually did sit through the whole thing, I'm sorry for making your life a little sadder, but then again it takes some of the sadness off me, so Thank you!....Okay, so now, I'm just babbling and don't even know if I'm making any kind of sense....But, Hurray, for nonsense.....I love JJ! Night, everyone!
P.S. No, I haven't been drinking.

Ten minutes left of work. My back is aching and my eyes are droopy. It's funny because the last 2 hours were kind of a blur. One thing I do remember though was when JJ came to visit me. Today is our 21 month anniversary. I am so thrilled to have been with him for this long. Every day I'm with him, makes me want to thank God for pairing me with such a wonderful person. He makes me feel so special and so loved. I couldn't ask for anyone/anything better. I truly love him with all of my heart. Despite all of the bad things we've been through, we prevailed and that's what makes our relationship so strong and everlasting. I am so lucky!
I just finished watching "The Wedding Date" and that quote at the end truly says it all..."I would rather fight with you, that make love with anyone else." That is pure love for you at its richest and deepest level. I am in love and I know it....and its AMAZING!
Thank you, Baby-Doves for 21 "amazing" months!

I have been in school only a week and I am already super-duper busy. Not only have I been busy, but have also been overrun by a flood of emotions lately. I am both excited and saddened that this is my last semester at LMU. My main reason for wanting to graduate early was because I don't want to have to pay off more loans that I already have accrued. However, I am going to miss my friends deeply. I am also worried about what I am going to do with myself when I finish. At this point, my best bet is to once again work at Kohl's and get some sort of internship that would be about 2 days a week. Hopefully, if I work hard enough and show them what I can do, they will want to hire me or mention my name to someone else. For these reasons, my thesis is extremely important. I am anxious to get started now that I have it written. I want to be able to show companies both my talent and interests. However, in a way, I also feel like this is my chance to show my friends what I am capable of as well. Having never had the opportunity to do something of this magnitude before, I feel like they don't really know my style or if I am capable of succeeding. So this is my chance to prove the doubters wrong and to reassure the faithful. Finally, I want to inspire. Who do I want to inspire? I'm not quite sure, but I know that is my third major goal with my thesis. So here's wishing and praying. Have a good night, everyone.

Here are some blogs from my myspace, mostly, quizzes about my top eight and such. Hopefully you guys won't be so bored that you'll read them all, but here they are anyway. Love yas!

August 10, 2006

My Top Four

Rules:
-dont change your myspace top 4
-fill the people in below
-answer the questions truthfully

Number 1: JJ
Number 2: Jenny
Number 3: Sara
Number 4: Bryan

Have you ever done anything illegal with 4? Nope, not yet anyway, haha

Have you ever kissed 1? of course, many, many times

Have you ever hugged number 2: yeppers

Have you ever hung out with number 2? of course, my future roomie

Have you ever gotten drunk/high with 3?: nope

Have you ever played a sport with 4?: nope

Have you ever had an inside joke with 2?: many times

Have you ever had a crush on 3? nope, she's my best friend

Have you ever gone shopping with 1? yes, and i think he hates it

Have you ever had a class with 3?: many times

Have you ever seen 4 in a swimsuit?: nope, unfortunately, JK

Have you ever hurt 2's feelings?: perhaps, but i hope not, and if i did, i would HATE myself, i love you, jenny

Has 1 ever hurt your feelings?: a couple times, but i doves him always, and that's what matters

Have you ever ridden in a car with 3?: yep, many different ones

Have you ever traveled anywhere with 2?: san diego for comic-con last year...hopefully more places in the future

Have you ever eaten anything in front of 1?: yeah, what kind of question is that anyway

Have you ever hated 4?: no

Have you ever fought 2? not physically, or anything really that i can remember

Has 3 ever seen you do something embarrassing? probably many times and we still laugh about how silly we both are

Have you ever seen anyone in your top 4 cry?: yes, except for ..4

Has anyone in your top 4 seen you cry?: yep, 1-3

Have you ever played on a sports team with anyone on your top 4? nope, unless PE with sara counts

Have you ever done something dangerous with number 1? no, not that i can recall, except for hanging out in secret passage ways of UHall

have you ever kissed number 2?: hahahaha, maybe

has 3 ever seen you drunk/high?: nope


March 23, 2006

fun quiz about "top 8"


The Rules:

- Don't change your top 8.
- Be completely honest (within reason)

[PERSON ONE]: JJ
1) How long have you known this person?: about a year and a half
2) Where does this person live?: Manhattan Beach
3) What is this person's initials?: JPC
4) Why is this person in spot 1?: cause he's my bf, and the love of my life
5) How did you meet?: through film society, more specifically, Kurt and Jordan
6) Do you have any classes with this person?: yes, ethics (phil)
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[PERSON TWO]: Jenny
1) Is this person older than 15?: yes, she's 19
2) Have you done anything illegal with this person?: still underage, so I guess, drinking
3) What is this person's stereotype: trendy, cool, ecletic, and sexy (great friend, too)
4) What song(s) remind you of this person: hmmm, any songs from cats and rent
6) How did u meet?: through film society
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[PERSON THREE]: Sara

1) What is this person's favorite food?: i think its still mac & chees
2) Does he/she have any siblings?: yes, one younger brother
3) What school does this person go to?: USC
4) Is this person atheletic?: well, kinda, not so much
5) What do you like most about this person?: we can hang out after all these years and its like we never left each others sides, its great
6) Has this person ever spent the night at your house?: my apartment, yeah, and my house, many many times
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[PERSON FOUR]: Adam
1) Who is this person's best friend?: honestly, I have no idea
2) Why is this person on your Top 8?: bc he's awesome and is a great, great friend
3) When's the last time you saw this person?: monday night
4) Does this person have a crush on anyone?: i don't think so, he doesn't have the time
5) If you were to go to Six flags would you take this person?: yeah, i think i would
6) How did u meet?: i messaged him on facebook and then he was the pres. in my american president project for directing class
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[PERSON FIVE]: Calvin
1) What is your favorite thing about this person?: he's a good listener and really honest
2) What are this person's hobbies?: filming, filming, and more filming
3) Does this person have a 4.0 GPA?: hmm, i don't think so, who cares?
4) What car does this person drive if they are over 16?: its blue, i'm not too good at knowing those things really
5) How long do you want to stay in touch with this person?: as long as possible, he's amazing
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[PERSON SIX]: Franz
1) Do you know this person's parents?: yeah, I met them once or twice
2) What does this person wear?: casual, laid-back style
3) What's your favorite memory with them?: wow, so many, i liked yesterday when i made him dinner and he helped me with my harry potter speech for yfs, that was fun
4) How did you Meet?: through film society
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[PERSON SEVEN]: Elizabeth
1) Have you seen this person's baby pictures?: yeah, she's my sister
2) What is one thing this person taught you?: how to be a good sister and play sims
3) what is one thing you taught them?: hopefully how to be a good sister
4) What is this person's initials?: EAF
5) Have you gotten that: yeah, if referring to the last question, i got it
6) How did you meet?: she's been my sister since 1987

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[PERSON EIGHT]: Kristin
1) If you could change one thing about him/her?: that she would start to listen to what other people have to say and not always think she's right
2) Does this person trust you?: i don't know, maybe
3) Have you ever broke this person's heart?: what? i don't know
4) How old was this person when you first met?: i met her the day she was born
5) What is this persons favorite food?: that's tough, maybe bacon ultimate cheeseburger
6) How did you Meet?: she's my other sister

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[ABOUT ALL OF THEM]:
1) Out of your top eight who did you last ride with in a car?: adam

2) Would 4 & 6 make a good couple: no, they're both guys

4) Who has SEEN you cry?: probably all of them, hmm, yep, all of them, except maybe #4

5) Who has the nicest car out of all eight?: definitely, #4, adam

6) Who smokes cigarettes out of your top 8? nobody

7) Do 2 and 8 like each other?: i guess, they've only met once

8) Which two people on your list are different from the rest?: Elizabeth and Kristin, because they're my sisters, and then Sara's different because she goes to USC and the rest go to LMU

9) Who was the last person on your top eight to call you? Jenny

10) Do you love any one on your top eight?: i love them all, but i love JJ the most, obviously

11) Do you hate any one on your top eight?: no, but sometimes i dislike them

12) Which one of your top eight is easiest to talk to?: Calvin, Jenny, and JJ

13) Which of your top 8 do you think is the smartest?: JJ

14) Which of your top 8 do you think is the funniest?: JJ and Franz

15) Which of your top 8 do you think is the nicest?: they are all the nicest, but probably, Franz and JJ, of course

16) Which of your top 8 do you think is the most shy?: Elizabeth

17) Which of your top 8 do you think is the most outgoing?: JJ and Kristin

18) Which of your top 8 do you think is the craziest?: Kristin and JJ

9) Which of your top 8 do you think is the biggest partier?: Adam and Jenny

21) Have you hugged anyone in your top 8?: All of them

22) Have you ever wanted to kill anyone in your top 8?: umm, eeek

23) Whom have you known the longest?: Elizabeth, sister since 1987

24) Whom would you want to hang out with next?: JJ

25) Whom did you last talk to on the phone? Jenny

26) Whom did you go to the movies with last?: hmm, probably JJ

27) Whom did you comment last?: Adam

silly quiz thingy......

1.) spell your name out in band names or singers.
Jason Mraz (you're welcome, Liz)
Eels
Nora Jones
Natasha Bedingfield
I can't think of anybody
Five for Fighting
Ella Fitzgerald
Rooney

2) Have you ever had a song written about you?
not officially, but JJ and I make up songs about each other all of the time

3) What songs make you cry?
there is no "song" that makes me cry, unless I'm already sad and listening to it

4) What songs make you happy?
oingo boingo songs cause they're upbeat and they remind me of JJ


APPEARANCE

HEIGHT: 5'9"

HAIR COLOR: sandy blond

SKIN COLOR: white, but not glow in the dark

WHAT YOU WEARING?: black tank top with neon hearts and blue pj shorts

WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: none, watching seinfeld

WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: toothpaste

WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: cool and crisp night

HOW ARE YOU?: not yet tired

GET MOTION SICKNESS?: not really, unless I'm on fast, spinny rides

HAVE A BAD HABIT?: biting my nails

GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: usually

SEXUAL ORIENTATION?: straight as a pin

CHILDREN?: hopefully someday

BEEN HURT?: unfortunately, several times

YOUR GREATEST REGRET(S)?: i attempt to live my life without regrets

GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS?: yep, everytime

YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW?: in my computer the new fight for fighting cd that i just added to my itunes

WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: being with my bf JJ, my friends, or at work with my work friends

THINGS IN YOUR ROOM: normal stuff tons of stuff covering my walls (including some of my sister's junk, haha)

SEVEN THINGS THAT PHYSICALLY ATTRACT YOU TO THE PREFERRED SEX:
1. eyes
2. smile
3. arms
4. hands
5. glasses
6. thinness
7. lips

Do You Smoke?: ahh no and never will

Read the newspaper?: once in awhile, but its always the arts and entertainment section

HAVE YOU EVER:

Been in love?: yes!!!

Had a medical emergency?: no, but i've had stitches

Had surgery?: no, just when they put ear tubes in my ears and i had my wisdom teeth pulled out (i don't know if that counts)

Swam in the dark?: yep, often

Slept outdoors?: once, at a zoo

Pulled an all nighter?: yes, many times, unfortunately

Been on radio/tv?: only channel 6 in LA, go LMUTV/Roar Network

Been to a party: yep, and thrown some myself

Gotten lost in the woods?: hmm, not to my recollection

Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: gay, but no lesbians, at least i don't think so

ABOUT YOU

Wallet: yes, never any money however

Coffee: gross, gross, gross

Cologne/Perfume: american girl perfume

IN THE LAST 24 HOURS HAVE YOU. . .

Cried: hmmm, teared, but not cried

Bought something: yes, two cds (five for fighting and keane (the new ones)) and some supergirl workout pants

Gotten sick: no, but sniffled a lot at work yesterday, stupid freezing air conditioning

Sang: umm, sorta, i think

Been kissed: no, sadly

Wanted to tell someone you loved them but you didn't?: ummm, no, i told all of them

Talked to an ex: nope

Talked to someone you have a crush on: yes, my bf

Had a serious talk: umm, i think so

Missed someone: muy, muy mucho

Hugged someone: my dad

Argued with a parent(s): ummm, a little, but nothing to severe

Attend Church: not the last 24

LAST:

Thing you drank: water

Place you went: best buy and the home depot parking lot

Person you talked to: said goodnight to my dad

Person you IMed: JJ

LAST QUESTIONS

1.Your full name? jennifer marie fiore

2. Grandparents' names? marshall, ruth, irene, douglas

3. What songs do you sing in the shower? none, but i hum sometimes

4. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?: burgulars and murderers would break in and harm me and my family

5. When and why did you last vomit?: not really sure, a long while ago, im pretty sure

6. What's in your pockets right now?: i don't have pockets right now, but early i found my dave and busters power card in my jeans

7. What color are your bedroom walls? yellow/orange

8. Last thing that made you laugh?: frasier episode

9. Nicknames you name your parents?: sometimes i call my dad pop and my mom M

10. Things you shout to stupid drivers?: "what idiots"

11. How do you like your chocolate?: dark and hot

12. Miss your ex?: no way

13. Others describe your butt as?: my bf says its nice and i hate it...that's about all

14. Describe your fingernails?: plain and short from biting them

15 What will you be doing tomorrow?: summer school homework and working

ok, i know, i know...i haven't posted in a very long time...and although i'm not tired i felt like updating, but being brief...so here's what's been going on with me since my last post

in no real particular order:
work
summer school homework
mom's cousins visted
venice beach
mao's under construction
work
4th of july at JJ's
work
new friends at work
yay
work
summer school hw
more summer school hw
work
anniversary with JJ
new pomodoro
comic-con
tgi fridays
tgi fridays
movies
carolyn, yay!
sleeping fight (minor detail)
home
work
summer school hw
ikea, target, and kohls with jenny and her cousin
dinner at jenny's
home
procrastinating
work
day off

ok...if any of you want more on any of the above mentioned subjects, let me know...for now i choose to go! heheh

Hey, all! Updating my LJ once again and its been awhile so here's a little of what's been going on in my life lately, if you care. Anyway, last Monday I started my job at Kohl's and have pretty much worked everyday since for about 6-8 hours per day. It's long hours but its not so bad, cause the people are awesome and the job's isn't hard or anything. I worked at customer service all last week and only encountered two rude customers out of at least a hundred, which is pretty good odds if you ask me. Yesterday I worked a register for the first time and it was really busy despite being a Sunday morning. The only real problem is, I guess, that I have no real set schedule. It changes from week to week, so I can't really make any plans much ahead of time. However, I really like it there, so nothing really seems to bother me much. And I'm making about $250 a week which is a major plus. If I save up I'll have some spending money for Comic-Con and still be set for moving out in December.

Besides working, I try to see JJ once a week and talk to him everyday. I also have gotten wrapped up in a soap opera. I plan my day so I can watch Y&R everyday and even if I have to work between the hours of 11:30 and 12:30, I can still watch it cause we get soap net at my house and its on daily at 4 and 10pm. Woo-hoo! I know I'm such a girly nerd.

Yesterday was my sister's 19th birthday and every year they grow up, I feel like such an old foegy! We went to dinner at Zushi in Dana Point and I ate so much food. Working at Kohl's has made me eat less cause we only get a 30 min luch break and I usually just bring a sandwich. Because of that I get so hungry when I get home. But I am too tired to eat. I'm not sure whether eating less that usual has been better or worse for me yet, but we'll see.

Also, my plans of working out at least 3 times a week has backfired because of my job and so has my online summer school class. I had to drop it. But at least I still have my piano class which actually counts. I guess that's all for now. Seeing JJ tonight for a movie and Jenny on Friday! YAY! :)

Wow! I haven't written since my birthday. That was about a week ago I guess, so it's not as bad as I thought. Anyway, since I last posted not a lot has happened. I started summer school. I am taking two classes for the first session, one online and one at Saddleback as well as a class online for the second session. My piano class is a lot of fun and my teacher is awesome. I am so glad that I am picking it up again, and hopefully this time I'll be able to stick with it, because it is really a lot of fun for me. The other class I am taking right now is a children's education class having to do with Early Literacy for a Child's Development. Kind of a long winded title I guess, and it's going to be pretty hard work, but so far I like that its testing my knowledge. I feel that I am going to learn a great deal, even if the credit is not going to transfer to LMU. One of the main reasons why I'm taking the class is because my sister is also taking it and I can help her, but now I realized that maybe this class could help me a lot if I do decide to someday work in children's television, which I think might be a great field for me to go into. Anyway, more about that later. The only other big thing that happened to me was I got a job at the Kohl's in Ladera Ranch as a cashier and customer service associate. It's fun so far!

I'm 21 tomorrow...weeeee! I am so excited. However, I know when tomorrow comes that I am going to be like what's the big deal, but its still quite exciting. I'll probably go out to dinner with my family and JJ tomorrow night and order a glass of wine (props to Adam). Yummy!

Anywho, last night I spent like 3 hours re-doing my myspace and it suddenly all got erased. I was so upset and angry. I know it seems like a stupid thing to get so upset about, but I felt like I had just wasted my time. Well, it ended up taking me one hour last night and one again this morning to work on getting it back to the way it was, and it's still not quite finished, but check it out anyway. It's pretty awesome, if I do say so myself.

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=8307960

On another note, I got my grades the other day and am quite pleased. I got 2 A's, 2 A-'s, and a B+. I was a little disappointed with the B+ in Philosophy because I put so much of my time and effort into that class, but as a whole I think I did really well, expecially my A- on my doc. Woo-hoo! That proves that I can be a good filmmaker if I have my mind set on it. Yay!